I remember the look you gave me.
It was cold, unforgiving, and full of doubt.
You didn’t believe I was anything. You didn’t believe I could do anything. And so you treated me as if I was beneath you, someone who wasn’t even worth a glimpse of your attention.
I remember it all, even when my mind hadn’t yet discovered who I was or what I was capable of at the time.
I knew I had been sheltered in the past, kept away from understanding the world as you saw it, but yet, even in my attempts to understanding you and the things I had wanted to learn, you simply brushed me aside as if I was nothing more than a piece of trash on the ground.
You didn’t believe I was capable of anything good, just because I wasn’t at your ‘level’.
So I told myself: Watch, I’ll prove you wrong.
It was during this self-discovery phase in my life when I’d broken away from every piece of my old self. It was terrifying, awful and most of the time, I was in tears.
I wasn’t sure what to expect or whether or not this would’ve helped me become the person I’d wanted to be. All I knew was that it’s better to do something than nothing.
Eventually as the years passed, I began to think for myself more. I began to step into places I’d never been to. I even began questioning everything that ever happened to me and why it didn’t make sense.
And as I kept learning and figuring myself out, you stayed the same.
You were so caught up with looking down on people that you forgot to realize your own potential. And I’m sad you can’t see that.
I wish I could help, but this is something you have to learn on your own.
Maybe then, you’ll realize the kind of person you were and the person I am today.
But when that time comes, will I still be the same person I was today?